Today is a day that leads to addictions.
Today would cause someone to give up on life.
Today I find myself wondering,
“is the phrase ‘do not exceed 6 pills in 24hrs’ a hard and fast rule?
“Or is it more of a guideline?”
I’m at eight right now.
Eight in three hours.
I just want to stop feeling for a bit
You would figure
Mass quantities of pain killers
Would be the way to go.

Do you remember,
Not the fifth of November,
But when you could fix a problem
By running away from home?
At least, we thought we could.
Some crackers and a teddy bear stuffed in a bag
It was all we needed
Our mom would worry;
Sure, we’d be spanked for it later
But we knew she gave a damn.

And now
We are the only ones who need to convince us that we actually care
As we forget ourselves over and over again.

I’ll just hide in my room since an adult who runs away from home is simply on vacation

And I’m too poor for that.